MY FATE...

Once again, I have found myself in the midst of something I promised myself was never gonna happen again.

I have found myself in familiar settings and the nostalgia begins to set in.

I believe that whatever happens today will mark the end of my sanctity, as I know it.

A proposal was made to me today; one that has got me thinking far beyond what my mind can comprehend.

I have been made a proposal such that I know what I should do but at the same time; I wanna delve into what the contents of the proposal holds for me.

Morality tells me that I shouldn't even waste my time pondering on what I should tell them;

Tells me that I should look them dead in the eye and say " NO"

That I should feel very insulted and get on my high horse, with whatever is left of my dignity and leave;

While the other part of me, the free willed part of me; the adventurous side tells me that this is something I have always fantasized about.

I have been given an opportunity to make my dreams come true;

I have been invited to the carnal recesses of reality that excites me beyond comprehension.

I shudder to think that I am even taking time to contemplate it.

What does that make me? I believe there is a name for people like me?

People who get excited at the wrongest things. Things that shake the very foundations of morality.

Once again, I am left a willing captive;

Watching the unending battle of wills between good and evil;

Without a mind of my own;

My fate is sealed; I will obey whoever comes out of this fight, a victor.

May the best man win...