FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!

I wake up sometimes and all I wanna do is run around naked, with my hair scattered, screaming at the top of my lungs " I AM FREEEEEE"!!!!.

But I can't because in reality, I am not. and the sad thing is the chains that so intricately bind me are woven so deep in the fabric of my life. Certainly, I cannot do the above because I would walk around with a huge chain on my neck bearing the inscription "CERTIFIED INSANE PERSON; A THREAT TO SOCIETY AND SELF."

Mine is a confused state of bondage because I have been given the blessing or curse, (however you wanna look at it), called "FREEWILL". It seems rather contradictory, really, when you look at it, I am free, I am not in prison neither am I a slave; I do not have to answer to certain things and i do not have to succumb to ideals if I have no care for them. However, those are not the ties that bind; I am talking about those inanimate things that more or less, dictate to us, how we should live our lives. and oh yes, you are part of us...

Lets take a look shall we? 

You wake up in the morning, say around 5:30 a.m, because you've got work to go to; you could easily stay at home and not work, you might add, but then you will lose your job and you can't afford to lose your job because that very job helps pay the bills.

Talking bout the bills, the rent is unpaid, electricity has been cut off, water is a no-show, estate management fee, plumbing needs to be fixed, gas needs to be refilled, phone needs to be recharged... should I go on?

Next, you decide to go to work, not anticipating the annoying people you will definitely see; those who have made it their life's duty to cause you pain and make your life an eternal hell. Somehow, you manage to take all that in and the next set of challenges brushes you off your feet, you've gotta face family issues, friendship issues, relationship issues and of course, the draining exercise of battling with your conscience...

To do or not to do?, Should I or should I not?, Is this good? No way, its bad, but it's not really bad, Can I do it? What will be the outcome if i do? But I'm not going all the way so it can't be that bad... And you go ahead and do it anyways. Next thing is you find yourself in a church and the preacher is preaching on salvation and the very topic you just finished acting out in real life. You immediately get a mental picture of yourself in flames and the monster in red with a pitchfork, opening his mouth and breathing fire, and you cower and break out in cold sweat.....

You eventually go home at the end of the day, tired and bent outta shape and you recap all the events of the day, heave a heavy sigh and fall asleep only to wake up the next day and continue with the same routine.... sometimes, lesser issues and other days mega- issues.

All in all, it is plain to see that this thing called "Freewill" is the slave master and we are the slaves and that is the fate we have all been resigned to. *sigh*

Marie.

MY KISS

MY KISS MEANS A LOT OF THINGS:

IT MEANS I LOVE YOU;

IT MEANS I CARE ABOUT YOU;

IT MEANS YOU MAKE ME HAPPY;

IT MEANS YOU ARE MY WORLD;

MY KISS CAN ALSO MEAN:

I ADORE YOU;

YOU'RE MY FRIEND;

I MISS YOU;

I'M GLAD TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE;

SOMETIMES IT MAY MEAN:

I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY TO YOU;

I'M UNHAPPY;

I JUST WANNA HOLD YOU;

I'M SCARED;

OTHER TIMES, MY KISS MEANS:

THERE IS NOTHING ELSE I CAN DO;

I'M SORRY IT HAS TO BE THIS WAY;

I WON'T WAIT FOR YOU FOREVER.

UNLIKE OTHERS, MY KISS IS MORE THAN A MERE MEETING OF TWO SETS OF LIPS;

IT IS NOT JUST ANOTHER FORM OF ENDEARMENT;

WITH EACH KISS, A MESSAGE IS PASSED. THINGS I CANNOT FIND THE WORDS TO SAY ARE INTIMATED IN MY KISS.

MY KISS IS VERY DEEP AND MEANINGFUL, FILLED WITH SWEET NECTAR OF THE FLOWERS AND BRIMMING WITH THE DELICACIES OF THE GODS...

MY KISS IS A MIRROR OF MY HEART; 

IT SAYS WHATEVER MY HEART TELLS IT TO SAY;

FRIENDSHIPS HAVE BEEN MADE BY A KISS, LOVER'S HAVE BEEN DENIED BY THAT SAME KISS...

BUT ONE THING MY KISS WON'T DO, 

IS TO BETRAY A HEART THAT'S TRUE..

nature!!!!!

Most times when I look out at night, my gaze wonders far into the skyline;

I begin to appreciate the beauty that comes before my eyes.

True beauty for me, does not lie in the things we make, but rather in the things that we do not make.

Someone once told me that all things were created beautiful and I the time, I didn't agree.

Permit me to say now that, I think he was right. Indeed all things were made beautiful; it just depends on who's looking and the manner in which you gaze. 

I once took a stroll with a friend one night and he pointed out something to me; from our vantage point, the moon stood right in the middle of two palm trees and I thought to myself, "that has to be the most beautiful sight ever". As I grow older each day, I find that I have come to appreciate every little thing that comes my way. 

Taking a stroll each night intensifies my desire to find the essence of beauty and I have come to the conclusion that the best exemplifier of this is Nature. Have you ever wondered why the clouds are formed the way they are? Every angle forms something different; the moonlight sending soft shadows across the sky and the stars , adding detail to the impression.

I watched a movie and I learnt that no matter how big the moon might seem, because of the distance, it is the same size of your thumb. yes, I tried it out and it is true... All you have to do is close one eye and raise your thumb in the direction of the moon... I love to feel the soft breeze blowing and tingling my senses, the smell of the rain before it comes, the heat of the sun across my face, the wash of the waves on my feet... everything so pure, so ethereal...so surreal.

Nature has this calming effect on the soul, it gently takes over your senses and gives you clarity.

All the elements of nature coming together to form a great, encompassing caress that gently nudges you to that place where dreams come alive and reality seems to vanish...