CURTAIN CALL 2

My name is Tamar; I was born a beautiful, screaming, little bundle;
My name is Tamar, I was born full of hope and promises yet unfulfilled;
My name is Tamar; I was born into a loving family filled with warmth and brightness;
My name is Tamar; I was born into comfort, affluence and wealth;
My name is Tamar... and I was born... with purpose.

I would really have loved to tell you about the moments after I was born; the next days, the next weeks, the next months or the next years, but I cannot because I simply have no clue whatsoever. I would have to be some type of paranormal child to be able to do that; you know, like something out of the "X-FILES".

I remember growing up lacking nothing, I was given anything and everything I wanted.
I remember being called beautiful and cute,
I remember being called intelligent and smart and full of promise;
and I also remember being called proud, spoilt and eventually, snobbish.
The above is all very true, I might add. The thing is, at some point I had to stop listening to and bearing the names other people had called me. I decided to start giving myself some names as well.

Top of that list were: nice, good looking, deep, thoughtful and most of all, mature.
It is a major SIN to think that maturity comes only with age; I learnt this as I learnt so many other things;
The most consistent word that follows maturity is RESPONSIBILITY, and most of the time, that is accompanied by PAIN.

Most of the time, we want to believe that our lives are controlled by other people when the actual truth is the control comes in phases: the first and probably the strongest phase is the "Parental Control Phase".
"Peer Control Phase", "Societal Control Phase", and the list is endless. However, the three most important phases to me are: the "Parental Control Phase", the "You Phase" and the "God Control Phase".

There comes a time when we have got to brace up and let go of the chords that bind; because overtime, they become shackles. Where we fall short is not being able to decipher when to let go and move on and as a result, we find ourselves heavy with unnecessary baggage.

Is this the story of what happened to me? no, its not. I just felt like sharing what I've learnt over the course of time.

Anyways, I've exhausted my quota of wisdom for the day, I need to go back and replenish.

*wink* Marie.

MUCH ADO BOUT NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS.

So its the year Two Thousand and Eleven.... such a mouthful.
2011, its the start of the new year; looking back at last year, I can say for certain that some wonderful things happened to me.
For one, I found a way to channel all my creative pieces and this blog was birthed; I moved into my own place( which really deserved the celebration), I lost a boyfriend (really, really hurt), I found a partner.... got a job.....
Yeah. last year was pretty eventful

So... Happy New Year to you all.

 It is the new year and of course, we've got sooo many people "claiming" to stick to some "new set of rules to live by" which I think is so cliche, by the way.
I'm of the opinion that people who do not keep to what they purpose to do are not worth....
Harsh words right? I fall in to that category but I differ from them for the simple reason that I don't propose things that I know I cannot handle.
No, I'm not saying you should not challenge yourself or push yourself or anything of the sort; NO.
I am saying, of what use is a resolution when it is not acted upon? the fact that I have decided to do something, or the fact that I have made up my mind to stop doing some things doesn't mean that I have done them... no?
My point of view though.

In truth, the fact that I wanna quit smoking( I do not smoke, by the way), or I wanna be more focused or I wanna be more money conscious or more God conscious doesn't mean that I am gonna do it anyways.

I think the correct thing should be: I RESOLVE to do..... and at the end of the year or the particular time frame alloted, I DID.

A resolution is not a resolution simply because I made up my mind to do it, it becomes complete when I actually DO it.

A word: let us stop making new "resolutions" year after year and concentrate on getting them done; thereby giving room for more. Our strength does not lie in simply making up our minds, our strength or weakness, as the case maybe, lies in our ability to carry them through.

lets get moving people..... its a New Year.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS.

The holidays are over; We all get to go back to our various duty posts.
Sure we all had fun and everything; some people like me had truck loads of it;
but now...... we all get to go back to face computer screens and and the different gadgets we own.

First off, let me tender my apologies for neglecting you all, during that time;
I guess I was caught in the excitement of seeing my family and friends,
Rekindling old flames *wink..wink* and just being absolutely naughty.

I got home and only the smell of the hot, humid air in Lagos, brought a full smile to my face.
I saw the traffic from the airport and nodded to myself; I was indeed back, for the next two weeks, this was gonna be my home.
No more of the quiet, peaceful life that Abuja gives; it was raw, pulsating energy here which i had missed... a great deal.

There were times when I found myself missing the peace and tranquility of my second home in Abuja; times when we had to sleep without electricity which was like almost every night and the water.... I cant remember the last time I had to ACTUALLY take a bucket and ACTUALLY fetch water; the hot, searing weather.......

That was the worst of it though; I had pure, undiluted fun. It was like..... a part of me had just risen and I was reveling in that life. Like I said before, the holidays are times when you let yourself go, just enjoy the freedom of the moment, and do whatever you feel like doing. These days do not come as often as we would like but when they do come, they should be met without the eccentricities of our baggage that we each carry about.

We should sit back, relax with our feet up, drinking glasses of champagne or lemonade or vodka and coke or whatever you want.....

It is the holidays, enjoy 'em while they last.

As for me, I'm back to the sanity and the hustle and bustle of the corporate world. Back to constant electricity... constant water supply..... and of course....... the beautiful yet chilling cold.

Marie.