Wednesday, March 30, 2011

A MORNING INSPIRATION.

Yaaaaaawwwwnnnnnn. I toss and turn to the other side; my eyes are still closed yet my brain is trying to function.
I hear the sounds of generators being turned on in the distance, a bell is being rung yonder calling people to Church;
 A mega phone speaks loudly to the darkness, some Arabic lyrics which mean the Mosque is ready and running.
Somewhere in the darkness, you can make out the rumblings of car engines being warmed up.
This is a typical 5 am in my part of the world, a typical morning somewhere in Surulere, Lagos, Nigeria.
In my own house, the shuffling of feet signify my sisters are up already, the light switch pops and the darkness is flooded with brightness.
Still, I bury my head under the pillow, knowing that I'm fully awake yet refusing to ackowledge the fact.
So my morning starts, I hear neighbours in the horizons beating crying children who have refused to take their baths, I hear young bachelors nodding their heads to their favorite Tupac number,
I hear the women raising their voices in morning fellowship, and I hear members of the taxi park across taking numbers for the days job.
The world is moving and I'm still here, on my bed
Trying to figure out the reason why I have got to be awake.
Somewhere in the deepest recesses of my mind, a voice reminds me;
I am still on my bed because, when I am ready, someone is going to turn on the generator for me...
I am still on my bed because when I am ready, there's water running from the tap...
I am still on my bed because I do not have to wake up and rush to the well to fetch water...
I am still on my bed because I have an empty bathroom waiting for me...
I am still on my bed because I do not have to wait till my neighbour finishes her bath to use the bathroom...
I am still on my bed because when I eventually do get up and do all these things, there is a car waiting to take me to work.
So when I wake up every 5 am to the same old routine, the same thought creeps into my mind.
I am not spoilt, I am blessed and I am fortunate.
I am privileged enough to know that I most probably did not deserve these luxuries,
I was considered worthy enough to be given.
So every 5 am when the world wakes up to do their business, I go about doing mine;
Which is taking time to appreciate the ONE who has made all this possible.
Just the simple fact that HE has decided to honour me by waking me up daily to enjoy the gifts HE has given;
Is inspiration enough for me.

BE THANKFUL!!!

Monday, March 28, 2011

MY LIFE, MY PAIN, MY GLORY...

I wake, I feed, I bleed I am human...
I have been given this thing called LIFE...
Did I ask for it? No...
Did I know who decided to place it on me? No...
Do I even know how I got  it? No...
Do I have a say in what goes on in it? Yes...
So I have been given life; its confusing, its frustrating, and its chaotic...
But its mine...
Yes, I have been given life; by extension, I have been given a chance to play God...
I have been given this... intangible thing...I have been given this power... I have been given this life...
Its beautiful, it makes me giddy, its exciting...
I have been given life...And I have been given freedom...
However, freedom is in iself, bondage...
I am constrained, I am restrained... Yet, I am free.
I am forced to look past myself to others, I have been placed in a tight situation such that ones folly affects me deeply...
I have been intertwined with other people and its such a deep connection that it becomes burdensome when I cannot live my life the way I want it to be...
That is my life... I have received it...
Along with this life, I have received a heavy weight...
Its called CONSCIENCE...
Its like a rash in the most uncomfortable of places...
Its a shadow that lurks...presenting itself when you least wanna hear from it...
Conscience has a face... Conscience is me...
Conscience is a mean b***h; she never hides her feelings and is not one to sugarcoat or feel empty remorse...
Conscience is... as real as reality goes.
Conscience is plain,she's a predator...
Listen to her and you'll find peace; ignore her and she'll prick you to death...Literally.
Conscience... is... my... pain...

A combination of both my life and conscience make up my glory...
My glory is satisfaction, My glory is a thumbs up for a job well done...
My glory is looking back on my pain and my life and giving myself a pat on the back...
My glory is contentment...
My glory is my pain and my pain is my life...
They are intertwined and interwoven... they are not to be separated...
They make up the trinity that is called...
ME!!!

Friday, March 25, 2011

SEX!!! and sexuality.


I want to have MAD, CRAZY, mind blowing, earth shattering, orgasmic, heaven-sending sex...
I kinda prefer girl-on-girl action...
Two random statements that state the difference between sex and sexuality to me.
I'm not tryna make this into one gender, women liberation type thing, I just wanna talk about sex...
Why sex? you might ask, why NOT sex? I ask in return.
Imagine you standing in the midst of a crowd, you and your friend, talking and chatting, loud music, people minding their various businesses and just when you are about to say either of the two above statements, it goes quiet and BAM!!!
Everyone hears and they begin throwing daggers in guise of looks your way...
Some are even downright disgusted, while some are gradually creating a distance.
The men give you appraising looks and almost bring out their checkbooks to write an agreed sum depending on how long the night is gonna be...
I'm not attacking the men here, I wanna address the women.
Could it be that they have NEVER HAD SEX?
Or worse, they've never had an ORGASM???
Shhhhhhh!!! thats not even real.. Women don't orgasm; thats why we prefer 'FOREPLAY'.
If you still find yourself living in that address, WAKE UP!!! Smell the coffee!!! Walk around and see that the world has actually moved on while you're still wrapped up in your self-made cocoon.
Gone are the days when women would lie on their backs and the men do the jobs while you make all the fake noises and keep praying in your crazy minds "Dear God, let him come NOW!!!"
Statistics have shown that more than half of women actually go through life having sex and yet never EXPERIENCING it.
Oh yeah! It is an experience indeed. What? you've never had sex that drained you off your bodily fluids? Or you lay back for five minutes cos you're sure your feet won't hold you?
Or you scream till you're hoarse and get to biting the pillow?
Am I wild? or Freaky?
Have you even had a hickey? No, I'm not talking rough sex or bondage and whips. If you swing that way, all well and good.
Sex is an experience, regardless if you are gay or straight..
As a matter of fact, its a tad selfish. Everyone has a goal- SATISFACTION.
The world has changed, you see your friend looking healthy and happy and glowing and you wonder...
Sex has a lot to do with it. Don't believe me? Google it... Go on, type 'the benefits of sex'.
All I'm trying to say is that we need to move away from the notion that women are not supposed to enjoy sex; we need to wash our minds and change the mindset that sex is overrated.
We need to understand the fact that sex is a big deal and its not only for procreation.
Its been widely said that every guy wants a lady in the streets and a freak in the bed... I would give that statement more thought if I were you.

NO, this post wasn't brought about by crazy, orgasmic and mind-blowing sex...

Ladies... BE BOLD>>>